Originally published: New York : HarperCollins, 2001.

Sent to counseling for hitting his girlfriend, Caitlin, and ordered to keep a journal, sixteen-year-old Nick recounts his relationship with Caitlin, examines his controlling behavior and anger, and describes living with his abusive father.

''Don't miss this timely contemporary young adult novel from Alex Flinn, the #1 New York Times bestselling author of Beastly, about a teenage boy's struggle to break free from the cycle of abuse. "Gripping." —Publishers Weekly Intelligent, popular, handsome, and wealthy, sixteen-year-old Nick Andreas is pretty much perfect—on the outside, at least. What no one knows—not even his best friend—is the terror and anger that Nick faces every time he is alone with his father. Then he and Caitlin fall in love, and Nick thinks his problems are over. Caitlin is the one person he can confide in, the only person who understands him. But when Nick's anger and jealousy overtake him, things begin to spiral out of control and Nick realizes that he's more his father's son than he wants to be. Now Nick must confront his inner demons to stop the history of violence from repeating itself. Winner of the Black-Eyed Susan Award An ALA Top 10 Best Book for Young Adults An International Reading Association Young Adult Choices List Pick A New York Public Library Book for the Teen Age Pick.''--,provided by amazon.